I’m getting ready to make the biggest mistake and even though I know it I’m doing it anyway. What’s wrong with me? Why is it that I know it’s wrong but I’m moving forward with it anyway? Do I like being miserable? Am I a glutton for punishment? Am I really hoping that things will change and get better? People say you can’t change people but you can. Not to what you want them to be of course but you change them into something different. He took the good in me and hurt me so much to the point now that I’m a bitter bitch and the traces of the woman I was are a mere glimpse of another happier time. Yet I want to be her again but I am to afraid to let him in again for fear he may completely devastate me again. Yet him being here shows otherwise and at the rate I’m going I’m setting it all up for failure again. So how do I get her back? How do I let go and become me once again?
